Sunday, May 07, 2006
i had a dream last night that i was in love with a married man. i have known him for a few years in real life, and i'm not in love with him, nor have i ever done anything to indicate that. i also dreamed that one of my friends who teaches psychology at the same university where i teach became a famous writer, that i was myself at my present age...but in the future i guess? she was much older and had recently died. her latest book was about to be released. i had no prior knowledge of any of her writing, etc., as far as i knew, a week ago, i was 25 and she was 29 and we were having coffee and grading papers...and then she was going out of town for a couple months. but i saw this outdoor commemoration with a picture of (i knew it was her but much older, it was so weird!), and that is when i realised that something weird was going on. i started telling everyone that i know her, that we both live at the gilmore and have coffee once a week, and that i wouldn't be surprised if her book were on either aquinas or kant. i think i was right and shocked everyone, but i can't remember. i remembered so many details that people would have believed me had i been in my 60's? 70's? but they said i was far too young to have known her when she was 30 and teaching, and that the building we supposedly live in is no longer inhabitable, but still stands. i wonder if this will happen in 30 or 40 years?i guess this is what i get for watching strange psychological thrillers. there are two types of movies i like, the ones where the end surprises you, but you understand what happened completely once it's over : (arlington road, the life of david gale), and the ones where you still have to think or rewatch the movie to get everything (donnie darko, memento, the butterfly effect). stay was like this last group of movies. i think one day when i have more spare time and more money, and i don't completely remember the plots, i will rent all of these over again and take notes. this is what i did for fun when i was younger (at friends' parties), one thing that i believe sharpened my analytical skills and my ability to see different perspectives in various situations in life. this is a good skill to have in every area of life...and much better than having an affair!
madame le professeur at 2:31 PM
